surrender is deeply misunderstood as an act of weakness.

surrender is the bravest and most lucid thing a human ever does,

and that's why it's so precious to the

divine.

SURRENDER

I’m known in my family for being a go-getter. I’ve been known to put myself through a LOT of self-induced stress while trying to accomplish a goal I have fixed my sight on. 

In our current society being a go-getter is a compliment, and the harder you work and the more effort you put yourself through, the greater your worth seems to become.

In the spiritual realms pushing yourself to the limit is not an effective way to live your life. Those on a spiritual path seek peace, serenity, flow, presence and freedom from attachment. To experience these states, surrender is essential. 

Surrender is necessary for me to learn before becoming the person and the parent that I want to be. 

So, for the first time on my journey, I’m having to admit that I don’t have the faintest clue about how to make what I want happen. I can take the action that is presented to me, but when it comes down to it, I have to surrender to divine timing and to a KIND universe. 

It’s a great place to be though! It feels like instead of carrying these mountains like I’m used to, I am learning to simply climb.  

When those urges of fear, doubt, anxiety about the future, or need to control start to creep back in, I take some deep breaths and quietly repeat to myself, trust, let go, surrender.

Wylder’s story

“Labor is the only blind date where you’re sure you’ll meet the love of your life.” -Unknown Tweet Wylder’s story Wylder was born June 10th

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belly full of baby

Pregnancy is getting company inside one’s skin. -Maggie Scarf Tweet belly full of baby Is every  kick, roll and hiccup extra magical for me because

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pregnancy

After my miscarriage, we were incredibly fortunate to be able to repeat IVF a second time only a few months later.
A few days after my second transfer, I started to feel the same symptoms and sensations that I had after my first, and I was quite certain the transfer had once again been a success.

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IVF diaries

6 week scare

My sister and nephew were in town, and we planned to celebrate my 6-week pregnancy.
we had just returned from a river camping trip and were excited to have a good dinner out later that evening.
About mid-morning I started to feel tired and bloated.

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INDIA part 1: NOT OF THIS WORLD

For my first experience of India it would have been smart to choose a nice quiet, clean, touristy destination. (Wait does that exist?)
We arrived into Kolkata very late in the night, but thankfully found a willing taxi driver quickly.

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A memoir

This is a post I wrote a few years ago, when I was still hoping for and dead set on a natural pregnancy.

It was a phase or a stage of my journey that I needed to go through.

For a long time I felt like I was supposed to conceive naturally, and that because I didn’t I had failed.

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Part 1: A long journey

My journey towards conception has been long, grueling, and at times extremely painful. 

It’s also been a beautiful journey full of self exploration and change. 

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